in my mind i try to be okay and get through the day, it often doesn't work and i spiral down

you should just die
i'm trying my best
if you were loved you wouldn't be alone
what are you even doing
i only pretended to care
i know
it was the right thing to do
you're too much
you're making me spend every day upset
i'm sorry
you should just die
that was creepy
i didn't mean to drag you along
i wont wear this
just kill yourself
maybe i should just die
you pushed everyone away
why did i do that?
you're a fraud
they will catch you
they know what you do
every interaction was a drain
every message a burden
i'm sorry
i never liked you
a cult of false
i'll never speak to you again
i hate you
you are nothing
i know
you give up on everything you start
you don't start anymore
that $50 note meant the world to me
not to me
i know what you wrote in that book
i'm sorry
i dreaded opening that envelope
it was worse than i could have thought
i'm sorry
i found the other note
i'm sorry
they all hate you
we're glad you're gone
i know
you were charity
i regret talking to you

i'm sorry
i'm sorry
i'm sorry
i'm sorry
i'm sorry
i'm sorry
i'm sorry



What have I become
My sweetest friend?
Everyone I know
Goes away in the end